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Study date & sports carnival'12!
Saturday 14 April 2012 17:35 
Had a so-called study date with the girls and at the last minute Tianfu came!
        Okay... unglam shots.  
Don't you just love camera 360's dreamy and pure effect? :)
        Maniacs in the toilet. LOL. When I think back, I'll still laugh to myself at how stupid we acted in the toilet...    And our failed jump shots. Everyone starts panicking at what to do when the shot is about to be taken.   Had our sports carnival this friday. And I couldn't believe yujie when she said I agreed to joining them to take part in the frisbee competition. I double confirmed with her if I was either sleep talking or whatsoever cause I really had no recollection of me saying that I would join in the competition. I would never ever join in a sports competition unless I'm mad or something. Okay la, I admit I didn't regret having this experience! I feel like I'm actually quite into the game and I tried supporting my team mates. But somehow I feel bad for not doing much more. However the weather was terrible for me, it was scorching hot and blazing warm. T.T Singapore Y U SO WARM FOREVER AND ALWAYS?! The mud was terrible, I almost slipped and fell even when I was running at a very slow pace. And quite a few accidents happened and unhappiness among some teams... Okay anyway... TEAM E3'12!!! Since I'm such a lazy bum.. I decided to use QROPIT! It's the perfect application for lazy bums like me.  However, the disadvantages are... you'll need to download on the app store or google play. Just scan the code and tada! You'll be directly linked to the webpage which is the full album of the event. Isn't that easy?!?!?!  If it doesn't work, here's the link! http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.3679758881437.164912.1499000508&type=1&l=23fd6ac647
Had a so-called gathering with some of my ex-classmates at pepper lunch!
I love their student price meals! (privilege of being a student). However, I do not eat beef so there aren't many choices for me. :/ Fortunately, there's salmon pepper rice! And no extra charges for changing your regular coke to ice lemon tea! I think there are some extra charges for green tea though. One thing I dislike: the choking smell! But I guess that's the purpose of it. And it's damn oily. Even though it's nice, I can never eat it frequently.  Okay, enough of my week! One of the topics I'm going to talk about, relationships not working out. Seeing couples ending their relationships so easily really makes me lose faith in relationships. I know all guys aren't the same, but who doesn't get a phobia of relationships when they are so fragile and easily broken?
"We made a mess of what used to be love."
Yeah, agree so much. I see couples ending their relationships just by a simple statement. And the typical excuses that they use. "You deserve better." "I don't love you anymore." etc.
DAFUG? I sometimes wonder if that's even considered love. Since when love fades that easily? I've always believed that if you love that person, you'd never ever give up on him/her. Feelings wouldn't even fade that easily.
Nowadays relationships are so darn complicated that I've no idea if simple and sweet relationships exist anymore.
Every time I hear a relationship that ended, I lose a little faith. I shouldn't be saying this but... a question pops up in my mind whenever I see a couple. "Will they even last?"
Will they be with the same person when they are married? I bet 90% of them don't last till that time. In this short 4-5 months, I've seen about 10 over breakup cases. That's why I started developing a phobia for relationships and always caution myself not to land myself into the same state as I used to. I still find myself really naive and stubborn. But in that period, I really thought I couldn't go on with life without that person since I'm so used to having him around. Was it really love or a habit? I wouldn't have the slightest clue either. After this recent event, I realised life can go on without that person that you're so used to having around and talking to. This quote really made me came to my senses and move on.
"You lived without him once, you can do the same now too."
When you think you can't live without someone, think again. You were born without that person, tell me how you survived through those days.
My feelings may remain the same for now, but I know that we're over and done with. There's no way in turning back and make the memories come alive once more. I accept the fact that we'll never talk again and never see each other anymore. All these does pain me but I know, we once had these memories and that we were just not meant to be. I may not forgive him for the things he done, but in time to come, I will probably do. For now, I should just focus on what's important. You have a choice to be strong, happy, sad, angry etc towards life and what it brings you. Remember that. I know life can really be a bitch and want to bring you down, but honestly, are you just going to let it do what it wants to?
Don't let it ruin you.
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