Renee
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I dare you to be my one and only.@ pastens-e
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The hottest love has the coldest end.
Saturday, 25 February 2012 22:17 Okay... So I just spent the past 5 minutes trying to think of a title. LOL. Not much of pictures cause I'm sick now and far too lazy to camwhore or anything else. I can't believe I still managed to survive through yesterday even though it was blazing warm and I was having a terrible headache. I thought I would faint. ._. Feel so touched when people ask me if I was alright cause I looked so sick. I feel asleep way too early yesterday and a certain friend kept asking me if I was alright cause I didn't reply. K called me but I didn't hear my phone rang at all. I feel bad whenever I cause someone to worry. Like who doesn't? Dad dragged me to the doctor's today and my temperature shot up to 38.1 degrees. And i somehow.. lost weight. I got surprise calls from ET and K to ask if I'm alright and all. Love them all!   These two pictures were drawn by my awesome friend! :) It's meant to be stitch but somehow it looks... distorted... But still, I appreciate it! :) I didn't know which effect was better so I just posted them all. And ignore the background.. I was studying my SS during then.  So yeah... Like I mentioned in my previous post, I went for my piano examination's this Wednesday. Was so nervous at the last minute that my mind went blank. T.T That's the worst thing that can happen to you. So I think I did badly. Too bad I couldn't get to see my results cause I didn't went for my lessons today and I'm 101% sure that I failed it. But it's alright! I shall treat this as an experience. :) To sum up this week: It's been a rough one for me. Really. I even made someone tear over me. In my whole life, this is the first time someone cried over me cause I was acting in such a foolish manner. Thinking back, I really feel so guilty. Which friend will go to that extent? I find myself so foolish and dumb really. But what's the point of ranting it over and over again? Things won't turn back on their own. We just have to accept the fact that things changes all the time and we shouldn't miss the past anymore. And my friends are always so supportive, I'm really grateful to everything they have done for me. I never wanna lose them ever.
Sweet Melodies
Sunday, 19 February 2012 12:16 "Love is fragile. And we're not always its best caretakers. We just muddle through and do the best we can and hope this fragile thing survives against all odds." I'm not the expert at love or whatsoever, and many may say I'm too young to understand it or whatsoever. But trust me, I've been through a lot. And yes, love really messes up your mind. You can be so utterly disappointed in someone and yet, you can't leave the person and you can never ignore the person for long. You forgive the person despite all the shits they've done to hurt you and you're expected to smile and just forget about it. The simplest things that that special someone does for you can make your day and forget everything that happened. And yet the simplest things that that special someone does to hurt you can make you remember it for long and maybe even for life. Love is screwed up and can be the worst experience for someone and yet, it can be a sweet and memorable feeling for someone. Nobody really knows the true meaning of love and yet love can be expressed in many ways. You may have that special feeling for someone but the person may not have the same feelings. It's hard to find someone whom returns the same feelings as you habour so treat every opportunity well. Went to MCO's concert on Monday which was titled Sweet Melodies. The day of the concert was to celebrate the eve of Valentine's Day and many love famous love songs were played for example, my heart will go on, 那些年, 童話 etc.   This girl above kept torturing me by forcing me not to sleep and pulling my hair and snatching my earpiece. Tell me how not to have a phobia towards her... T.T 
Finally reached the concert place and the media was there too!
There were lights camera and flashes everywhere. LOL.
Everyone was slowly busting in as the time for the concert to start neared.
         
Our best, cutest and frustrated looking teachers. LOL.
   And YAY! We're finally inside the concert hall. Sat with Melvin Ching, pkk, mingyau and ET. I kept complaining cause Mingyau kept shaking his legs which in turn caused me to shake in my seat too. LOL.  MCO did great. :) Even though I found some of the tunes really weird but still, it turned out to be awesome! And our dearest conductor, Mr Low Cher Yong even rearranged the song 那些年 on his own! I kinda got sick of hearing that song over and over again since it was quite popular among my friends, but the orchestra version didn't bore me at all. After the concert had a late supper at Mac's! Had an enjoyable time and then parted ways and headed home with Erilea. :)  
It seems to fade, but not the hurt
Saturday, 11 February 2012 12:27 
This girl, she's my closest friend. Despite us being in different classes & all, I can still look for her whenever I need somebody to talk to and get crazy with. I kinda miss hanging out with her. We still remember the song we used to sing all the time together. :) <3
This isn't much of a picture post since I haven't took much photos this week. ):
But I think I'm still dealing with secondary 4 life well. I mean I'm still able to find time with my friends and all.
Common tests are coming up real soon and by that, I meant next week.
Seriously gotta buck up and start studying!
Ohyes, I'm gonna take my piano examinations after my common tests. To be honest, I don't think I'll be able to pass... *sigh* But nevertheless, I'm gonna do my last minute practices and work hard for me. Wish me luck! :)
And I think I'm slowly getting back to being social and everything. Okay... I know I'm not those anti-social type, but I think I kinda drifted away from many people ever since last year. I've been so preoccupied with my emotions and all that I hardly had the time to actually sit down and talk to anyone. Even if I was hanging out in a group, I hardly talked. And yes, that made me kinda left out. Hopefully things will improve for me again.
Time has brought your heart to me.
Sunday, 5 February 2012 00:04 "Everyone can walk away. Nobody is forced to stay. The real test is if someone would rather stay with you when it's way easier to walk away."
Someone who accepts you for who you are. It's easy for people to say, but hard to find one that truly does. People say it's alright to be yourself & yet, they judge you for the littlest things you do. They tell you that they won't ever change their opinions about you, yeah right.
F-L-I-R-T
Tell me who hasn't gossiped about their friend before? I bet almost everyone does. Including me. So, I'm really glad to have friends whom have no idea who my other friends are and I have no idea about who their friends are. That way, I feel safer about telling about my thoughts and secrets.  
Went to SCCO's concert at the Singapore Conference Hall yesterday. I kinda regretted going to it cause my close friends were all performing, leaving me alone... T.T But I'm glad I went cause I got to watch their performance. :) They really worked hard for the guest performance and almost had practices every week. I'm so glad their hard work paid off! :)
SCCO did great too! I really enjoyed myself throughout the concert despite me being so exhausted.
Siewtin and the rest preparing the placards! But it was all wasted cause we didn't use it at all. LOL.
  
One thing I disliked there, some people were so inconsiderate. Talking, shouting, SHHHH-ing at everyone. Gosh, it's annoying. One person even took a picture when photography wasn't allowed. How inconsiderate people can be? We were really so annoyed. Once a group of people shout, some other group will follow next.
Okay putting that aside, I was practically starving there... I was even tempted to eat the fruits that were provided in the vending machine. LOL. I had my dinner at like 4? And guess what I had? Maggi mee. T.T
Was planning to have mac's after the concert, but seeing the time, totally no appetite already.
Okay, I shall start on my homework!
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