Sorry people, I won't be blogging about happy stuff nowadays.

There comes a period of time when you feel like everything's crashing down on you.

People may say ahla, there she goes again, yapping about how sad and miserable her life is etc.

Honestly, do I look like I give a damn to what you say ?

YES. I should be happy to be alive etc, but I'm a normal human being too.

I'm a normal teenager with teenage problems.

Just keep your mouth shut if you have no idea what I'm going through.

You don't have to read this if you don't want to.

Stop judging me and start pointing fingers.

Sometimes, I just stare in the mirror and can hardly recognise myself anymore.

I mean, not the looks. But just the attitude and all.

Even my parents and peers said I changed.

I really hate how much I've disappointed my parents yet it seems so hard for me to change back.

Whatever I did today, the first people I thought of, was my parents.

I hate it when I thought of their disappointed and upset faces.

But... yea. Sigh.

I know, that's just a small matter to people nowadays, but you won't understand how much it can hurt my parents.

I may seem I'm happy among other people and peers.

But when I'm alone, my thoughts tend to go wild.

That's the reason I tend to try & go home late.

Not because I dislike my family and my home, I just can't stand it when my thoughts run wild and I just feel so weak and helpless.

No matter what I do and how busy I get, I still have the time to think about stuff.

I know I should be contented with life already. With such supportive friends and family whom are always there for me no matter what.

But the problem just doesn't lie there.

I know I could have saved myself from so much heartache if I wasn't involved in a relationship etc, but come on, when your feeling is there, would you think so much ?

Yes, I know I don't deserve to complain since I decided to go into a relationship in the first place and caused myself so much trouble and heartache.

If you never experienced it, you won't know how it feels okay.

Sometimes I'm really happy that you said you've changed cause of me.

But at times, I just feel numbed to whatever you say.

I really wish I could just put my 100% feelings into you, but... I just can't.

I hate how I'm honestly feeling now.

I really like it when you act... normal.

But I dislike how you give me false hopes at times.

But now, my heart is numbed already.

Nothing matters anymore.