Loads of events happened in this past few days. Been so moody and I swear I'm going mad with all my thoughts.

It really sucks to be figuring out everything on your own and not having someone whom can really understand your emotions and feelings. Some think that things are simple and plain but the truth is, they aren't really that simple. The person you see smiling happily in school may be facing something that you can't even think of. If life was that simple, why are so many people still depressed and upset ? Shouldn't the world be a happier place ?

Honestly, life's so complicated now and I'm tired of trying to fit the pieces together.

 

Still, shall summarise my week.

Got so sick of using the tab button to hover around websites so I finally got my mouse.

(Yes, I'm that patient and dumb to use the tab button to use the computer.)

AND FINALLY. I don't have to use the tab button anymore.

 

Didn't get to attend the SEP this tuesday. Sigh. :/ The instructor treated them to mac's. Good stuff always happens when I'm not around. Sadistic much.

 

Went down to Bugis with Yujie yesterday to accompany her in search of a present for her bf.

But we ended up getting more stuff for ourselves hahaha !!

Spent about $60 yesterday. Sigh, it's so hard to earn $ yet so easy to spend it. Zzz.

But I'm quite satisfied with the stuff I got yesterday. ^^

Got myself a bag, two shirts and a crop tee.

Met with Shantel, Tiffany & Jenna later on. :) Had much fun with them. :)

Legs were aching so much since I didn't sat for almost 6-7 hours. Was so relieved when i finally got to sit. Overall, had an enjoyable day with them ! :)

Probably heading back there next week to get more stuff with ET !

I NEED $$$$$$$$.

 

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I really hate how you always wanna argue over the littlest things.

I know you dislike some of the stuff I do, but can't you understand a little ?

I dislike the stuff you do too.You know how hard it is to ask myself to calm down cause of your attitude ?

Whenever you're mad, I'll try my best to cheer you up and give in.

Why cant you do the same ? Change for a little will you ?

Even if it's not for me, think of your future. Not everyone will have the same patience as I do.

You have no idea how much your words hurt. I know you're sensitive to a lot of stuff, but can't you see how much I'm trying ?

The first thing I do every morning is to text you and figure out how am I gonna contact you when you being in Malaysia & we can't text that much since the bills are like bombs.

I'm always worried that you'd get mad if I get home too late.

I reply you as quickly as I can and yet... it's still not enough.

I wished there was one day we could talk normally...

Yesterday, honestly, it scared me so much to see you being like that.

Actually, it scares me to see how mad you can be.

I wonder how I would feel if I saw those in real life. Probably the image will be etched in my mind.

I wished you'd have more faith in me. I said I wouldn't leave. Unless... there's a day when you decide to leave me to fend for myself.

I just want you to know that, no matter how worst you can get, I'll stay.

Unless I really have a need to leave.

For now, let's just be with each other and hopefully we'll be able to change one and another.

I never intended to like you this much... But it just happened.