Went to Matilda's house today to update the version of my very lousy xperia x10 mini pro, but the stupid software said I had the latest version already when I didn't. It's damn brainless. -_-
So in the end, didn't get to update. Sigh... Wish I could just change my phone like now.
Had fun browsing through videos and stalking people though. LMAO !
Overall, quite a fruitful day. ^^ Had a heart to heart talk with her too. :) feel so much better than I did last night. I hope I don't suddenly go to depression mode tonight cause I really felt so terrible last night. Spent 3 hours pondering about life or my mind is totally blank for a while. Have no idea what my mind wants from me LOL. I think I'm gonna cry tomorrow... Seriously dislike seeing my friends going through all that. Some people may think that they went overboard some may think that they didn't. But still, my point of view is that I believe there's a reason to everything. I just hope that they'll learn from this experience and be alright. And that their classmates and peers will always be there for them no matter what happens. :) Stay strong guys...

I really wish that there is a day that we don't have to spend scolding each other or we have to endure each other's attitude... I really miss the old us. Where we talked about normal stuff and we didn't curse and swear at each other. Have I given in too much that led to this ? I have no idea what to do sometimes you know ? Don't know if I should give in or give you a piece of my mind. But it's just too much to take sometimes. I'm really exhausted trying to keep up with your temper and all. I really like it when we talk and everything's alright with just normal joking and fooling around. Those times are really rare now though... You apologize, but it isn't enough if you aren't willing to change. You told me you didn't want to talk about your past even though you trust me. I just wanna let you know that I won't judge you based on your past alright ? Everybody makes mistakes, there's still hope for you to change. It's just up to you if you wanna change or not. But I decided not to pursue the matter since I could see that it was upsetting you. I said as long as you changed for the better, that doesn't matter anymore. You said you'd change for me. I hope you'll... Even if it's not for me, I just want you to be a better person for your own sake. I wish I could honestly read your mind to see what's on your mind. If it's what I think it is, I'll go and leave you to be. I honestly have no idea what you want. I really hate making you upset, but I really need to know. Cause I'm so torn between my feelings and my mind.